amidst the lillies

Taking time to lay among the lillies in my life, I find myself so completely and utterly full with God's creative expressions of His infinite love for me, that I'm overwhelmed.  Along with family members that are devoted beyond belief and friends that are basically family, I have been blessed with those who truly encourage me to pursue my absurd dreams.

I know this won't be this way forever, but it's this way NOW.  So for NOW, I am full/filled with an abundant gratitude that makes me thank God for every generous, kind, thoughtful, loving, selfless thing that anybody does.  Suddenly blessings become evident everywhere I turn.  I see the best and the half full glasses all around, patiently waiting for me to see the other side.

And when I'm in this garden--my secret garden--among the lillies, the fragrance of an open heart, faithful spirit, and obedient walk saturates my skin.  I am no longer pretending to be that woman, I am becoming her genuinely.

greener grass

Why is it that we can never be satisfied with what we have??  The eyes are never satisfied.  Chasing after illusions of what might be, we gamble away things that are worth sharing and possessing and experiencing for the promise of some possibility that really ain't all that appetizing once we have to eat it.

So, I ask again, why are we never satisfied?  So few experience the phenomenon of their cup running over or even being half full.  We think the next fly beau or babe will be the one to take us to that place we've dreamt of, but never fully reached because we don't slow down long enough to realize that we're empty.  And no matter how fly or fine, how much money or how much time, no matter what this person ever does or tries they can never be enough to keep us satisfied.  We are hollow.

Simply lacking the ability to retain substance.  Possibilities are drawn into the realm of reality by our pessimistic mentalities, which are conditioned to worry about the future consistently.  We are so frequently coveting that we rarely say, "Thank you."  And rather than uproot the weeds, water and landscape what we've been given, we forsake our treasure in search of more, oblivious to the fact that we haven't even nurtured what we've been given.

I commit to tending my OWN garden.

heartbreak is...

heart/break
is
wanting your head
on my shoulder,
and for you
not to
be
scared

trust
that I love you
in every possible way
a woman can
love a
man
even though
we've never
known
the luxury
of commitment
or label

heart/break is me
telling you
I'm here
and you
knowing it, before the words
slip through
my parted lips

heart/break is
you not knowing
that your
dreams have
become a part
of my own
menagerie;
I guard each
piece
as if it were
the last rainbow
I'd ever see

And I see into the heart
of you
through your life
under your mind
I bathe
in your subconscious
knowing
the things
you're grasping to find:
you are
my
soul/mate
even though
you don't believe
in them.

And if past lifetimes
are real,
we were there
together.
Doubtlessly,
I assert,
I am part of your answer
and, you,
bumblebee,
are part of mine.

Heart/break is
aching to give
you all the BEST
life has to offer...
pacifying the pain
and just leaving the lesson
undoing the mistakes
that you may
regret
and joyfully placing before
you an
array
of beauty:
each item and idea
carefully
engraved with
your name
and watching you savor
each
and every thing
with excitement and
optimism in your
eyes

I see you.

heart/break is
us knowing
that once something
is broken
love heals it
stronger
than it was before,
but most
importantly,
love heals. 

what i'm learnin

Welcome to 2010!!! We are a year closer to ushering in the Age of the Aquarian (I am TOOOOOO EXCITED!!! Can you tell?  December 21st, 2012 is the day!).

Around the bayou, reflection is inevitable...it must be something about the hushed hum of dragonflies or the stillness that all of nature has assumed with gratitude to God for another successful revolution around the sun.

I've been thinkin' about what I'm learnin'...

like:

to love takes courage, and courage can only exist where there's fear

dreams are real and vital like air

when one door closes, another door (or window, trapdoor, skylight...) opens

the night has secret powers

plans were meant to be rearranged (I think it's God's way of bringing out the neurosis or artist [or are they the same?] in us)

we are ALL still growing

there is truly nothing lost in the fire

busyness is not the same as productivity and being "responsible" is overrated   ;)

I'm beautiful AND lovable

there's enough love for everyone, and I got a whole lot of it

we really ARE what we eat

respect for seasons makes the art of living much more graceful

the bigger the risk, the bigger the reward (or at least the better the story is after it)

I think I really DO want to be a vegetarian (for now at least)

not everything that's begun needs to be finished...

only those avenues that are dear to our hearts and worth it

Welcome back, to BluMoon'sBayou!

in this between

How did I get myself entangled in
this matrix of thought and emotion?

What is it that I call myself doing?
I know that gray has never
been my color
when I live in black and white.

I know just letting things be
isn't my strong suit
nor is it my desire
right now,.

So what is it that I call myself doing
in this between
with an anomaly
of a man-child?
Ain't I too old for this?

Shouldn't I be shamed
or should I just
keep feeling my
way through this maze with my mind
shut "off"

let the lists go

I've always had this long list of things to do and be...

lately I find myself letting go, and just trusting that the most important things, I will remember.  All else can wait.  It works so much better than always striving to DO something.  Sometimes, the best thing to DO is to just BE.

My girl has a new book: Freshmen Honeyz!!!!!!

My sista-friend has accomplished a great feat!!! She has written her own book and it's the hotness! I'm not just saying that because she's a friend of mine; I'm saying it as a fellow writer.  If you want an intriguing novel and coming-of-age tale about 5 young women, then this is definitely a book you need to check out!  It will make you laugh...it will make you think...it will make you want to tell a friend...

Here's the link:  http://www.mahoganywoodland.com/

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